a note, file away

Ok, so, you know, I look 14. Eighteen on a good day. Whatever. I'm aware. It's all good, blah blah blah, it'll be great to get carded at age 40. My Dad and Aunts have the same "problem," I know the direction it takes. I'm used to getting carded at R-rated movies (although that only happens in the Bible Belt). Boys tease me about it, and I can be seen in public with younger men and still have them look bad instead of me.

However. There's always a "However." I get royally creeped out by older men as a result of this. Because, obviously I don't look legal, and THAT IS WHY THEY ARE TALKING TO ME. It's not like I can just come right out and say "Dude, I'm not into pedophiles." I mean, even the guys my own age are gonna be that way right? I figure just saying +/- four years is my limit is the safest way to prevent it.

(On the same note, I really despise geekboys who become interested in me when they find out I read/write SF or have a CS degree. "Because, obviously, a girl like me is gonna go for your loser ass." Find some social maladjust like yourself to fuck; leave me alone.)

And this I must say is why I don't get asian fetishists. If I were Asian, I'd be so freaked out by any white boy for the same reasons.

slippin

herbaliser: do you realize I haven't drunkenly made out with anyone in months?
hotcrab: how depressing is that

I mean, ok, I guess I did get drunk once or twice with the last guy I slept with, but we were at home, and plus, sleeping together, so it's totally not the same. How will I ever be able to reclaim the title of the kissing bandit?