definitions

[lauralh]

I hate it when new variables enter into the equation of me, because then I have to redefine myself. Until then I feel completely nebulous and approaching zero.

My standard approach is to mull over the problem, then come to a decision as quickly as is feasible, and then say, "OK, I am now X, so I feel Y and Z and do A and B." It makes life a lot easier when you don't actually have to think about what you're supposed to do, because you create a template and just go off from there.

On the other hand, it means I tend to create new Laural-paradigms rather quickly, and can change into a completely different person one day to the next. I usually don't do that, because they don't stick so well when made so quickly in succession. But nonetheless I don't always make the best decision about which paradigm to slide into, and I can get stuck in really stupid situations, just because I've decided that I'm the Kind of Person to do That. However foolish That may be.

So now, I think, I should not do that so much. But of course then I'm all nebulous and confused, and then I overthink. Ugh.

Comments

[greywanderer.livejournal.com]

and this is what you're thinking about when you should be working? :-P

[herbaliser.livejournal.com]

No, this is what I realize when I'm sitting on the toilet. Come on, I don't actually THINK when I work!

wait, that came out wrong.

[hotcrab.livejournal.com]

you are an organic structure
the oatterns are much more complex than that

i know what you mean though
i am always trying to nail myself down
to define myself with a simple paradigm
so that i can stop worrying about it
and just live

unfortunately, we have a word for this state
when you stop changing
and its called death

[herbaliser.livejournal.com]

yeah, the "equations" I use are fairly complex, as human behavior is fairly complex, but on the other hand I tend to find people really easy to understand - they usually don't surprise me, I mean.

I don't mind changing - in fact the other word I use for a person who never changes is INSANE - but I tend to lump all changes together at once.

Re:

[hotcrab.livejournal.com]

i feel that way about people too
i am rarely surprised

[scarlett723.livejournal.com]

I have an idea, how about you figure out my life crises and I'll figure yours out, sound fair?

[herbaliser.livejournal.com]

hm, well I almost have this one figured out, though. I'll give ya a fair shake though.