sister i'm a

Watched Trust and Men with Broomsfriday, in the opposite order. So MwB is a charming Canadian comedy (premise: canadians are funnier than americans) about, um, curling. Yeah. I don't quite get it either, but then I don't get most sports. At least this one puts every other american on my level (of not giving a damn about the sport but still caring about the movie).

Trust is a rather clever Hal Hartley film about two misfits who fall for each other. Sort of. There's lots going on, and Martin Donovan (whom I became familiar with first in The Opposite of Sex) is indeed amazing, "dryly sardonic and violent" or whatever. It felt like reality, but not in a scary way.

And then I saw Bowling with Columbine with ziptie sunday. Well, I'm sure everyone's got an opinion on it, but I have two other things to say which I haven't read yet:
1) Seeing the footage of the planes crashing into the Towers still makes my skin crawl and want to cry.
2) However, seeing footage of the Columbine massacre had almost the opposite affect. I felt energized and aggressive. I have some issues with my high school experience, I guess. When they mentioned that Eric and Dylan were only a few weeks from graduation, I couldn't help thinking "Dude they so should have done it then instead."

the lesson is, never try

I like my hot tub a lot, but I don't enjoy it much when both A and B are true, where A is no one else is with me, and B is that I'm in an overly introspective mood. So introspective that I was thinking in the shower about hiow I should stop thinking. And then I got dressed and started putting my clean clothes away (I still need to make my bed, the sheets are in the dryer so I slept on the mattress cover last night with a naked comforter and pillow). I put on my Mates of States CD and after hanging up a few shirts I felt like crying. I immediately took some 5-HTP, then lay down till the feeling passed.

Gotta look for some more jobs. Applied to several (over 8) before my 'net died this morning, but well, then it died. Back to the grind. I'd like to do my unemployed friends' benefits claims in exchange for 10% or something, but that's not so likely. And I don't have the energy to do much else lately.