you'd think after a year I'd be used to it

[lauralh]

But the fact is, I haven't like bought any new clothes that actually accentuate the weight I lost. I just sometimes get shocked in the shower - WHERE DID I GO! b/c I put on about 15 lbs in 2010-2011 and then lost it last Feb/March, and then another 15lbs after that. Those 15lbs were simply the one or two pounds I'd gained every year since dating Reg. One doesn't go from 26 to 34, in an established relationship, without putting on a little weight.

So, now all my clothes from before meeting Reg fit me. Correction - my clothes from HIGH SCHOOl fit me, except for the size 4 jeans which I had made cutoffs out of years ago anyway. I'm definitely a little bigger than I was in high school, but not very much. Seems to be edging at 4/6 for pants and 2/4 for shirts. In ladies sizes. In Jrs it's more like 5 or 7. And yes I still wear Jrs sometimes, where else do you get cute shirts that show off your boobs? I mean, when you don't have any. I can't fucking understand how I can wear a 32C and not really have cleavage to speak of. (My boobs pretty much don't gain weight. I went from a 36A to a 32C, which just means that the band size shrunk four inches and my boobs shrunk one inch.) My thighs are 22inches, they may have been smaller in high school but I'm amazed to look at my legs, which have always ALWAYS been larger than normal. I always wondered how chicks walked around on spindle legs, and now I'm almost there. Well, ok, my thighs still touch and make that cute little triangle.

I think I'm a bit more accepting of how I look when I'm not wearing pants. I definitely have a 32" waist (although my designer jeans insist it's 27") around my navel, apple shaped, but I also have a 38" ass, so that's reasonable. So with a shirt off I can see the spare tire, but with only pants off I see skinny legs, something I'm just not familiar with at all. And I even have to wear a belt with my "skinny jeans" since my legs are apparently bigger than my hips should be, or something?

The look this past year has been sweaters over tights, although I didn't have cute tights till December, and I still don't have that many cute sweaters. Not that I want to wear what everyone else is wearing, but I want it to be a conscious decision, not a "I haven't been shopping in 8 years" default.

I got a makeover at the (unfortunately) most expensive counter at Nordstrom's Friday evening, the woman took maybe ten minutes to make me look five years younger. (And yeah, I already look pretty young, I know.) She gave me some free samples after I spent far too much on moisturizer, but I figure once a month I can afford something like this. The cream blush was to die for. I looked like I'd had just a single glass of wine, all aglow and fresh. So, we'll see. She did think I had to wear sunscreen while working with computers - has she not heard of LCD screens? - and mentioned lots of MSFT women felt clueless. I don't feel clueless, I just wondered if I could do better. And like I said, she did. Someone else said I looked like a doll, by which I think he meant unnatural, but I figured I wasn't going out in daylight so whatevs.

Anyway, part one of turn into a woman is almost complete. Clothing will be next. I swear I'm going to buy cute stuff and pay an asian lady to tailor darts into it so I look like I do have a waist, and all that. Whew!

Comments

[debrafortune.livejournal.com]

May I recommend investing in at least 1 good bra. Go get a fitting at Vic Secret or the brassiere store of choice. It's well worth being professionally sized and fitted after a weight change.

[herbaliser.livejournal.com]

I did that but then I lost more weight. I'm finally stable at 32C though.