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I don't believe in a soul, as in, a part of a person that will keep on existing after a person dies, because it flies against the face of all reason. The only justification of it is that people are afraid of annihilation. I mean, I am too, but even people who believe that death is only the death of the body are afraid of that.
I was sick once and watching Jesus of Montreal, which has a really sad part in which an actor playing Jesus has an abcess or something weird - anyway he's dying and preaching in the subway, and everyone thinks he's crazy. Meanwhile I'm high on cold medicine and start having an epiphany of what death really, truly means, in this rationalistic system of belief I hold. Of course like most things you experience when you're high, I lost the actual meaning later, but the memory of it is still fucking scary.
Anyway. We can realize and comprehend things that don't actually exist, like love, beauty, justice, mercy. And these are still relative, but who is going to argue that this is ugly and this is beautiful. Sure it's culturally influenced, but not completely. When I say "soul" I refer to, obviously, the brain, but the right brain, the part concerned with these things instead of rules and order.
When I attended church the only thing I really enjoyed was singing in choir. Eventually I convinced myself about the other stuff, so it's not like I don't know what religious ecstasy or peace or spirituality is like. For those who don't, it's like reality with fewer words, a lot more abstract I mean. Sexual metaphors work best, I suppose, if you want to think of it that way, but with far less of a direct observable cause/effect action.
So, discount sex, money, and eating, and we have pretty much everything else that affects us emotionally. If nothing does, well, sorry. If something does, please tell me!
[Poll #484686]
edit: um, in case it wasn't clear, I just wanted to know what moves you on a spiritual as opposed to a physical level. change answers please
I was sick once and watching Jesus of Montreal, which has a really sad part in which an actor playing Jesus has an abcess or something weird - anyway he's dying and preaching in the subway, and everyone thinks he's crazy. Meanwhile I'm high on cold medicine and start having an epiphany of what death really, truly means, in this rationalistic system of belief I hold. Of course like most things you experience when you're high, I lost the actual meaning later, but the memory of it is still fucking scary.
Anyway. We can realize and comprehend things that don't actually exist, like love, beauty, justice, mercy. And these are still relative, but who is going to argue that this is ugly and this is beautiful. Sure it's culturally influenced, but not completely. When I say "soul" I refer to, obviously, the brain, but the right brain, the part concerned with these things instead of rules and order.
When I attended church the only thing I really enjoyed was singing in choir. Eventually I convinced myself about the other stuff, so it's not like I don't know what religious ecstasy or peace or spirituality is like. For those who don't, it's like reality with fewer words, a lot more abstract I mean. Sexual metaphors work best, I suppose, if you want to think of it that way, but with far less of a direct observable cause/effect action.
So, discount sex, money, and eating, and we have pretty much everything else that affects us emotionally. If nothing does, well, sorry. If something does, please tell me!
[Poll #484686]
edit: um, in case it wasn't clear, I just wanted to know what moves you on a spiritual as opposed to a physical level. change answers please
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Date: 2005-04-29 09:59 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-04-29 10:39 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-04-30 12:29 am (UTC)because I think of everything as physiological and having to do with energy, and nothing to do with an everlasting soul.
not to say that a rare song and witnessing a small thing that touches me or a string of coincidences doesn't make me feel like I may have something of a soul.. but again, its so physiological.
maybe I'm missing something
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Date: 2005-04-30 12:38 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-04-29 10:04 pm (UTC)There's this old Chip 'n Dale cartoon where Chip and Dale, two chipmunks, discover this glorious thing called a peanut. Instead of an acorn, which only has one nut per package, this "peanut" thing has two. Chip finds one and cracks it open. "One for me, one for you," he declares.
This is probably the earliest example of what I can only call my "hard-on for capitalism." Whenever I read a story or see an example of two people trading to get exactly what they want, I just get this pleasant little burble of endorphins in the back of my head.
(Now that I think about it, Chip and Dale did this a lot. There's one cartoon where Donald Duck's trying to chase them out of his model train village - 'cause, you know, Donald just loves his trains - and spends 14 minutes chasing them, trying to smoke them out, siccing dogs on them, etc. In the end, he gives up and lets them live there. They keep the set clean and tidy, and in return Donald gives them a place to live. omg the invisible hand omg)
The idea that people can get exactly what they want without pleading, whining or threatening was amazing to me. It's probably what led me to Ayn Rand in my high school years and Austrian economics in college. I love the mutually enriching power of trade. I love the fact that cooperation and voluntary exchange makes everyone richer, instead of one person richer and one poorer. Even when I witness exchanges that don't benefit me personally (like two imaginary chipmunks and an imaginary pantsless duck), I become convinced that I live in a Benevolent Universe. Even if I don't believe in a god.
So that's where my soul's at.
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Date: 2005-04-29 10:09 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-04-30 04:15 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-04-29 10:28 pm (UTC)Perhaps this is an unnecessary observation, like pointing out that the characters in a movie are simply projections of light, while missing the point of the metaphor. Nonetheless, this is pretty fundamental to my passions. I believe that hedonism is the standard of "good" because that is what we are programmed for; it is the engine that drives all other desires. Social institutions and beliefs tie into these needs. By understanding the fundamental IO of the body we can make become more efficient at finding "happiness" (chemical highs). It's not that different from the evolution of medication from trial/error to scientific evaluation and response.
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Date: 2005-04-29 10:35 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-04-29 10:39 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-04-29 10:38 pm (UTC)So I dunno. Maybe it's just a part of being human.
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Date: 2005-04-29 10:39 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-04-29 11:34 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-04-30 01:00 am (UTC)But I was wondering about those links? Did you happen to get them backwards? The Vargas print is ugly, and a prefab concrete block is beautiful?
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Date: 2005-04-30 04:02 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-05-01 08:21 pm (UTC)This is an act of technology, and not of god.
In the end this is while were all going to DIE!
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Date: 2005-05-03 11:01 pm (UTC)Like you said, its just a metaphor that people have come up with, because there's obviously something fundamentally different about a living body than a dead one, and everyone wonders what it is. if there's anything that is a soul, its the complex and chaotic thought processes we have that make us different than machines. its why we make art, and sometimes do things that dont make sense. but its nothing tangible, and when you die, it dies too.