soundtrack of our lives

[lauralh]

1) My Bloodly Valentine - When You Sleep
2) Pet Shop Boys - Very
3) H.I.M. - Wicked Game
4) Our Lady Peace - Clumsy
5-7) Depeche Mode - Lie To Me, Things You Said, One Caress
8) Interpol - Specialist

Last night I heard "Hangin' on the Telephone" and immediately felt sad. So I've been listening to some more of this stuff, this somewhat melancholy music. Stuff that makes me think about the idea of sadness without necessarily having to be all that sad. Maybe just remembering what it's like to be sad. Sometimes, I feel old and full of fucking regret, but that makes me more angry than sad. I think anger is better because it spurs you on, whereas sadness just makes you want to, well, lie in bed listening to records.

I'm sure I've mentioned Steve a million times; for those of you who aren't aware, he's my housemate/roommate/whatever. We've lived together over a year now, and somehow we became best friends. I am the kind of person who needs a lot of "downtime" - that is, I'm an introvert - but I can be with Steve and still feel alone. That's a compliment, of course. On the other hand this makes things odd sometimes when we hang out, because we need people who aren't quite as vampiric. Sometimes. Sometimes he and I do great when it's just the two of us, but oftentimes we need others to help us out in that sociable department. Getting into the zone. It varies. But that's how it is, and we both know it, and we aren't offended about it.

And then there's some people who don't understand it. I personally have lived with two best friends in my life, and I rather liked it. Still do, I mean. The great thing about living with your best friend is that you always have someone around, and therefore you don't feel the same grating need to find random companionship that some people do. The fact is that I still would like a boyfriend, but for real reasons, good reasons, not just because I'm lonesome and want someone to go to the movies with or whatever. I mean I can go to the movies alone too, but you know what I mean. It's so much better to have a friend around that I like a lot rather than a boyfriend that I love but dislike, at any rate.

Comments

[janiev.livejournal.com]

It's so much better to have a friend around that I like a lot rather than a boyfriend that I love but dislike, at any rate.

You're right. That's why my friend Rob needs to move back to Lexington. PRONTO!

[monstrosity.livejournal.com]

Vampiric? You? You must be joking. All I hear about are your wild escapades. It seems your journal paints a different picture.

writing about watching TV and surfing web for hours isn't interesting

[herbaliser.livejournal.com]

Er, in this sense I meant emotionally vampiric, but I guess I do only come out at night.

[jimbojones.livejournal.com]

Just because she's on all the "Dorks Gone Wild: Doggy Style!" tapes doesn't mean she isn't a quiet little introvert at heart...

[discogravy.livejournal.com]

it's a discrete manner in which she makes out with girls while onlookers take pictures.

[jimbojones.livejournal.com]

If you'd said "discreet", I'd have called you a liar.

[herbaliser.livejournal.com]

Well, it's true that I've only been photographed doing that once.