more thoughts re: yesterday afternoon's post

So let's move forward to the premise that college is bad, because it encourages a culture of excess. Either you meet and fuck a shitton of people, or you drink too much, or drop too much acid, or just overdose on drama. And if you ain't doing any of that, you're probably working way too fucking hard on classes. There are very few careers where you have to pull all-nighters, ever.

But then again, it probably goes back to high school. The reason people explode in college is because their whole life up to that point, they've had to fucking ask permission to go to the fucking bathroom. Freedom is fun! and scary.

Something needs to be done. But not for me, I'm over it, I work for a living.

soul

I don't believe in a soul, as in, a part of a person that will keep on existing after a person dies, because it flies against the face of all reason. The only justification of it is that people are afraid of annihilation. I mean, I am too, but even people who believe that death is only the death of the body are afraid of that.

I was sick once and watching Jesus of Montreal, which has a really sad part in which an actor playing Jesus has an abcess or something weird - anyway he's dying and preaching in the subway, and everyone thinks he's crazy. Meanwhile I'm high on cold medicine and start having an epiphany of what death really, truly means, in this rationalistic system of belief I hold. Of course like most things you experience when you're high, I lost the actual meaning later, but the memory of it is still fucking scary.

Anyway. We can realize and comprehend things that don't actually exist, like love, beauty, justice, mercy. And these are still relative, but who is going to argue that this is ugly and this is beautiful. Sure it's culturally influenced, but not completely. When I say "soul" I refer to, obviously, the brain, but the right brain, the part concerned with these things instead of rules and order.

When I attended church the only thing I really enjoyed was singing in choir. Eventually I convinced myself about the other stuff, so it's not like I don't know what religious ecstasy or peace or spirituality is like. For those who don't, it's like reality with fewer words, a lot more abstract I mean. Sexual metaphors work best, I suppose, if you want to think of it that way, but with far less of a direct observable cause/effect action.

So, discount sex, money, and eating, and we have pretty much everything else that affects us emotionally. If nothing does, well, sorry. If something does, please tell me!

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edit: um, in case it wasn't clear, I just wanted to know what moves you on a spiritual as opposed to a physical level. change answers please